Chapter 21 – Tripped Breaker

God Repairs

Psalm 23:3

“He restoreth my soul: He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for His name's sake.”

Proverbs 3:5-6

“Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.  In all thy ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct thy paths.”

Suddenly a sharp pain struck my face and spread like a lightning bolt over my head. It had left me so stunned that I almost passed out. By the Grace of God, I had had a strong impression to stand still just a few seconds prior and managed to stay in control of my faculties and land in the middle of the living room floor just inches from our clear glass coffee table... I quietly called upon the Lord. I knew I was on overload and overwhelmed in so many areas of my soul. My nerves were frayed and the compounded grief and other bombardments had definitely begun to take a toll on me physically.

After a few moments laying there Pumpkin came over to me and bumped my face with his soft fluffy head and then proceeded to do the famous Pumpkin roll right alongside my torso. He purred and purred; I felt like he was praying for me and comforting me with his warm sweet presence. I had a few tears roll down my cheeks. Before I knew it Kaiyah was standing over by Pumpkin. She looked at him, then at me with genuine compassion.  I remember her looking at my feet and then all the way up to my head.  Kaiyah was careful to not step on Pumpkin as she positioned herself by my head and then lay down with her little paws inches from my face. It was an unusual moment. All was very calm and quiet. I didn’t want to move just yet but put my hand on my face where the “bolt” felt it struck. It was warm. I found my voice to whisper praises to the Lord for His Goodness, for His Comfort… for everything I could and just rested.

A few more tears left their salty trails down my cheeks. Gideon decided he had to figure out what was going on and came out of our bedroom with a huge meow. With his long sleek black tail held up high and a few more meows, he strolled to the end of the short hallway to the living room and stopped. He stood there looking at everyone including me with his alert big green eyes and thundered out a really big one that got everyone’s attention. Kaiyah sat up. Pumpkin sat up. And there Gideon was in his big boy way coming to check things out. He marched over and sniffed my face and meowed while looking at Kaiyah and Pumpkin. I reached my arm over to pet each one and thanked them for being there for me and asked the Lord to bless them. We all seemed to get the “all clear” memo at the same time and began to move about. I slowly picked myself up and went to get a cup of warm water and sat down out on the patio with the sliding door open for any furbaby that wanted to join me. They all did. After a little sunshine and cool grass under bare feet and paws, we all came back in and I laid down for a short bit. Not being one to take naps it was more a health formality.

No one knew what happened that day except the Lord and my three furbabies until I shared it with Peter. It was a long time before I would tell Peter what took place but when I did he just hugged me and told me he loved me while thanking the Lord for taking care of me. I think the sensitivity of our animals blessed him too. Today, I still marvel at God’s incredible Goodness in keeping me, and for the little furry ministers he had alongside me when my body had what felt like an electrical circuit overload. Thankfully when that “breaker tripped” it just needed to rest, be reset and, to God be the Glory, there was no damage. 

As I reflected on some of the incredible and amazing systems God carefully Designed in what He has made, including the electrical system of my own body, I thought of my dad. Pops was pretty knowledgeable about electrical things so I worked to remember some of the many examples he shared and showed me on the subject. I began to seek the Lord for His Understanding, Wisdom, and Counsel in a new way. There is no “electrician” that can compare with Him, not even close. I called to mind again the Passage from Proverbs urging the importance of trusting in the Lord with all my heart, not to lean on my own understanding but in all my ways acknowledge the Lord and that He would direct my paths, (and even my internal pathways including my “wiring”). I asked The God of all Grace who has called me to His Eternal Glory by Christ Jesus, that even while I suffer, to please make me perfect, to stablish, to strengthen, to settle me even as 1 Peter 5:10 encourages. God is Faithful and He always has a Plan, only good ones and He can fix anything…

After that incident, the words from my previous boss came to mind and it wouldn’t be the last time. I heard her kind caring exhortation after the loss of my Pops, and my baby, and friend, “Be kind to yourself.” No one ever said that to me before, ever. It would be a colossal paradigm shift, no doubt about it. I didn’t think that way... And I wasn’t sure how to even approach that concept so I put it to prayer. I could see merit needing to be more careful with me but as Marmi would say about things that didn’t click with her, “That does not compute,” and it didn’t.  My “wiring” didn’t run that way. It was becoming evident that I had need of “re-wiring” and “load balancing” in a few areas. And I began to ask the Lord to do just that - after all I am His, He Loves me and He made me. It would take time… and it would be extensive... and it would come at a cost…

In the meantime, Peter, Kaiyah and the kitties were doing their best to ensure I was “grounded” and “insulated” by their companionship and love. 

…Until we meet again…